Stressed
Thursday, 9 May 2013, 06:13
Hey guys, so I haven't been blogging awhile, yes I have noticed. Andddd I decided to blog something because someone on Ask.fm asked me to :)
I didn't expect anyone to read my blog but yup! Was really happy when someone requested it?
Anyways, these few days and another week more to go is my MYE( Mid-year examinations). I just feel really stressed out by the overwhelming load of things we have to study for upper sec. I just wish to go back to my Lower Sec days when it's not that stressful ya' know? But then again I really love my sec 3 class :) All my wonderful classmates who will be there for me when I'm in need. 3G is really an awesome class. The best class I can ever ask for. I can still remember our cohort camp days :D! Struggling with maths so bad I can't even.... sighh but then again it is my fault for not doing self revision. Okay maybe it's partially the teacher's fault that I don't understand a single thing she says but.. it's also my fault to not approach another teacher :/ Maybe it's not too late? i have decided that after MYEs i'll just start doing my own studying. Both in A and E maths.
I'm not sure if it's my imagination but I feel like i'm being judged by teachers because of my grades? I mean c'mon, it's really uncomfortable when they give you this 'JUDGING-IN-PROGRESS" type of look... Want to judge also not so openly lah cher'. I'm already expecting a U-grade for both my Maths and my physics.
Not only am I feeling stressed but I'm also really insecure.. Yes.. like really. I just have to be of hearing distance when someone mentions the word "fat" and I'll be totally like.. " Omg, are they talking about me?" then i'll look at myself. Nowadays when I see like mirrors or things that reflect, i will just look at myself. It becomes this habit to judge myself you know? Like i don't even know where this habit came from.
Looking on the bright side, I actually shed off 8KG within 8 weeks! Through regular exercises and keeping my recess and lunch to strictly milk, I manage to shed 30 POUNDS <3 AHHH so happy. The feeling is just great!
Sighh ok back to studying! I'll upload my before and after photos soon! :P till then!
p.s: To the person who requested for a blogpost, thanks for reading my blog :)
-Olivia
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