So recently I've been sick. Like first I was down with stomach flu followed by bowel irritation and so on blahblah. For the past one week, i've eaten like 12 different medicines. What in the world >< argh! The feeling is horrid!! I'm banned from food that contains lactose which is like EVERY GOOD FOOD? I don't even know what i can eat anymore!!! I crave for so many food oh gosh let's see, Gelato, pizza, cheese sticks, cheese burger, cheesy crumble chicken ham. AHHHHH FOODIEEEEEE!!! Sighhhh You know, ever since school reopen, I've been trying to forget AHEM. But i guess it's quite difficult. Everytime he smiles at me... I can't help it but smile back you know? And... The thing is, he's so hard to read! Stupid problem of mine? Thinking too much. No one would ever like me. I'm fat and ugly and repulsive, i actually make people disgusted? I know i can be decent looking sometimes but most of the times? Nope. Anyway, i'm not saying all these so people can go like "oh no wenya you're really pretty" NO. I don't want that. I'm typing all these out because it makes me feel better. Honestly. I really want to try being slim and pretty for one day. Please just one day, let me swap with someone. Also, i know i'm too young but... I've always wanted to know how it feels like to hold the hand of a guy you love dearly. I... When I see couples, i actually get jealous? I don't know!! I know im not supposed to even think about it but... It's just a thought. I'm sorry for even thinking it. It's never gonna happen to me i guess... On a happier note, texting yu fong actually cheered me up hahah! I was about to have a rough day, then talking to the forever optimistic yufong is seriously damn funny HAHAHAH! I'm probably going to dance with LiYing next Sat after Miss Tan's wedding! I'm really excited coz I love dancing but i can't seem to dance. Looking at me dance is like seeing a penguin trying to break dance. Yeapppp that's me! Hope no one judges the fat girl dancing ( A.K.A ME) Ok then I'm really sleepy, time to sleep! Till then -Olivia